It's my turn

Hello new readers and faithful followers.
The baton has been passed to me, the husband, and now it is my turn to type an entry in this blog. I would not want people to think that all feelings about our adoption journey are one-sided. I want this adoption as much as my Beautiful wife does, I welcome the challenge that this process will bring and I look forward to seeing the answered prayer, the times of uncertainty and the desire to "let go and let God" as it were become the perfect representation of our family's walk with God. Nothing in this life worth going after in the Name of God is ever easy, after all, the Christian life isn't easy, its impossible. Perhaps for me, this adoption isn't about what else I can get out of it but what impact it can have, not only on the lives of those we adopt but also everyone who supports us in this endeavor. If this ever becomes "Look at what they have done" and not "Look at what God has done in their lives," we have gone about this with the wrong motive. My motive, no, my hope and prayer is that God would bless my Beautiful, Kai, Jelly Bean, Gabe and myself with a child or two from a country where government-run programs don't exist and place them in out family to love them and raise them according to God's Word. I want to let you in on a little secret, ever since my Beautiful and I have openly talked about adopting, to our family at church, God has placed a vision in my mind and I see myself standing in the congregation with two children that we have adopted from Africa. When I think about that vision, my desire for this to come to fruition is rekindled and set firm within my heart. 

As many of you have seen on my face book account, I have been dealing with the Shingles. Yeah, less than thrilled when the doctor told me I have herpes zostas something something...I think I can count on one hand the times I have been in such pain due to illness where I couldn't think straight or focus on any one thing. It was the pain that finally sent me to the doctor just to figure out what was wrong with me. I thought it was poison ivy which I figured I had gotten when I was cutting the lawn at the church. Honestly, I thought the doctor was blowing smoke at me when she said it wasn't poison ivy. I thought, "I've had this before and I know what poison ivy looks like". Apparently not. What's better, is that at the time of the appointment, I had already had the Shingles for a solid week, exposing my family to this contagious virus. Now I am on the mend and my prayer is that my Beautiful and I won't find any signs of chickenpox on our kids but I suppose they will have to get it at some point in their young lives. Yay. 

Well, I think this is all for now. A kind of testing the waters to see how our blog viewers react to my entry. I think my Beautiful wife wants me to make entries into this blog as often as she does. I'm ok with that, I just don't make it a habit of telling people what I do on a regular basis but maybe I should. Perhaps I will write about the funny things my children say to me like, "Dad, you don't have to keep talking and saying words.  You just don't have to keep talking." Ha! That was Kai today when he asked where LEGO's come from and I thought I knew, but as I was rattling off the names of every Northern European country I could think of that could possibly manufacture my son's happiness and reason for life, he stopped me and well, I guess I was talking too much. 

Before I hang up, I just want to leave you all with Matthew chapter 6, paying special attention to the scriptures that talk specifically about worry and provision. Also 1 Corinthians 13, which speaks about the meaninglessness of having everything but love and Hebrews chapter 11:1; faith, evidence and substance. These have been my guiding principles through this journey with Christ. I want to have faith like the crippled man in Matthew 8 who knew exactly what he wanted from Christ, "If you are willing, cleanse me". I am excited to see how God brings us through this journey on our way to adopt from Africa. 

That's it for now. Thanks and God Bless

3 comments:

  1. I really love reading your perspective on this, Jordan. As the head of your family--your ever growing family--it's good to read your thoughts and vision on this new adventure.
    Thanks for sharing here and on Facebook as well! I don't get to talk to you as much as I'd like, so I really appreciate catching glimpses of you like this. You know I'm so proud of you! You're a wonderful husband and daddy. Love you, son.
    Mom

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  2. Hi Jordan! :) First, let me tell you that I'm glad that you're on the mend!
    Second, I love that you call Dianna "MY beautiful". Love that!
    Third, as you envision standing in church with your new little ones, I envision you all at our next family reunion or Christmas celebrations. :) Looking forward to meeting them (and seeing all of you!)
    Fourth... lol about the Lego story. Too funny!
    Keep the posts coming! Wonderful to hear your excitement too! <3

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  3. Yes you SHOULD tell people what you're up to on a regular basis! LOVE reading how you're doing in all of this as well & just grow more & more proud of you the more I read. I'm so proud of you, big brother!
    And yeah...totally laughed at Micaiah & the legos. Ha! Oh kids.
    The feeling you were describing about knowing this is what God has put on your heart & wanting that to come to life more than anything...I know that feeling well & I am so dang proud of you as a hubby & daddy for leading your beautiful family that way. I can't wait to be a part of that with my husband & kids (read: more than just myself!) someday too!
    I love you immensely, Jordan, & LOVE that you've been online more lately!
    Can't wait for our next family get together also with all the new little family members together!! Love you guys!

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